I love my girlfriend and my life but I want to kill myself. I want to kill myself and when I do it, I want to be laying in my ex-girlfriend's lap. I want her to hold me while I slowly die. I was with her when I started having thoughts of suicide and she broke my heart. Like I said, I love my gf and I love my life so I don't understand why I'm thinking like this.
i don’t understand it either… i don’t really know what to say, to be honest. if you love your life, you love your girlfriend… i don’t see why you’d want to miss out on it all.
So I had a weird dream the other night where I met you in person and we hung out but you didn't really want to hang out with me and just wanted to go do your own thing. I have no idea where that dream came from. Just, interesting.
that is interesting ha. doesn’t seem too impossible though. i mean, i wouldn’t like be rude about it and be like “i’m over you bye” but… i do tend to enjoy “going off and doing my own thing.” i used the be the center of attention, now i’d much rather sit off to the side.
Oh,from where am i? Lololol. I, often times, send you asks to let you know how happy i am for you and the like. Though i seldom see them being answered, it's safe to assume that you've read them and it made you smile even for a speck of time. <3
I’ve definitely read them and they have definitely made me smile. I appreciate them so much. :)